I'm finding that i have been reluctant to go on with my life because i haven't enjoyed my past and didn't / don't want my future to have the same form or ingredients as my past. But greatly and thankfully i am finding that the more i am learning the more i want to go forward. The new things that i am learning are releasing me from my past. Old ways of thinking about the world and about myself. Old attitudes towards myself and toward the people and world around me. The universe is not based on strict rules but is a living organic thing with totally different absolutums. I think it really is a simple as matters of energy bumping and interacting with each other! Very exciting and true. It means that all the truisms i see in a river are true througout the universe! Very nice we are all just matter and energy and spirit cos i do believe that God created all this i just don't believe that it is how we expect it to be. It is far more interesting and dynamic and i am forever grateful for that!!!! Awesomely i am really quite excited about life now i am not bored by the universe any more and this is only the beginning :) More Insight and understanding please dear jesus : ) with love eddyx

ok Hello

I think its so funny that everyone is claiming that they were phone hacked. THey've all just jumped on the band wagon. Its like they are all jealous of each other and want some of the attention themselves. Does anyone else thin that the whole celebrity "thung" is totally dysfunctional? I find them quite amusing now people to be awgled at not taken seriously. I saw Black eyed peas on channel 4 last night and it struck how in a playground they are just the kids who are trying to be the coolest pretty much like all the pop stars rap stars etc .. they've all bought into this thing this organisation that makes them money its just a club that they have joined and now have to abide by its secret codes which allows them all to prosper as long as they all play along and don't make any of the others look too stupid nor leave them out in the cold. Anyway who makes the real money? the mangers, directors and owners they are the ones misleading the public! Aaaaaaaaaaagh! Hate it.

The world at peace

I am sitting at the kitchen table with my girlfriend looking at the kitchen taps dripping in the sunlight and it all seems very peaceful. I've been thinking recently of how different the world would be if the leaders of the world started to alleviate the poverty and hunger in africa and elswhere rather than just making excuses for why business should be allowed to "roam free" unchecked and the rest of us support the policies that allows this. How different would the world be - if food was sent to the starving in africa for free funded by the governments or businesses. If wells for water were dug for them or water pipelines were laid so they would not die of hunger or drought? I doesn't take much to build a water management system. It would be fun to address these problems, how different would the world be? After a while we would sit happy that we had done our bit that starving and droughts in africa were being addressed we would share in their joy rather than desparing at their trajedy. We are not powerless. I have been thinking recently of trying to organise a peace train, lorries taking grain to africa... what can i do to help? God what can i do to help? I thought of pipleines desalination plants all these are ideas a grain pipeline i wonder what is being done at the moment?Please show me.